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RE: NOW FOR THE LATEST NEWS to which I will not refer again...
From newsigh on 8/27/2001 9:51:26 PM

{{{Mary}}}} OK..girlfriend...Let's get that kite aloft!!! You've done well!!! What does that kite look like??

1. WARNING!!! WARNING!!! WARNING!!! (long)

From tillietoiler on 12/13/2000 10:32:20 PM

Listen, my children, and you shall hear
The sad, sad tale of this old dear.
I smoked and smoked for 51 years
I struggled to quit with many tears.
But, alas, I waited much too long
And, yes, I know that I was so wrong.
I have Emphysema, lung cancer, too
Allergic to everything, even the zoo. (ok but it rhymes)

I've struggled to quit three times this year
And really thought I was getting near.
Then I got sick again, went to ER
And learned to my sorrow just how far
My health has gone down, for now it's my heart.

ENOUGH of my moaning, groaning and fears.
Just want all the Newbies around here to hear
What can happen to you, should you not keep your quit.
And don't think it can't or I'll have a fit.
It's too late for me but not for you.
So stay with your Quit! Please don't go Boo Hoo.

Old Nic didn't get me, I just plain gave up
My problems too massive, I can't hold them up.


END OF POEM, dear friends. Other than the Emphysema, I seemed to be fine until I tried to quit. Jan. 19 Quit; Heart surgery in Feb. Started smoking again April 3. Quit April 20; lung cancer surgery May 11. Back to smoking early July. Quit Dec 3; Dec. 10, find enlarged Left Ventricle (heart) and abnormal EKG. (Coincidence? Probably). Will be seeing doctor soon (tomorrow, I hope) and will consult with him. But, on top of living with 2 chain smokers, financial problems, and so much tension in the house, I just can't do it.

IF I am able to move to myself in Feb. or March, I will probably try again. I DON'T LIKE SMOKING! I feel as tho I've let so many people down but not as badly as I've let myself down. Forgive me and I hope to see you later in the winter.

A very humble Mary


2. NOW FOR THE LATEST NEWS to which I will not refer again...
From tillietoiler on 8/27/2001 9:46:01 PM

The news from the oncologist was just about what I expected. The cancer is not only in my right upper lung but is also in the lymph nodes in the center of the chest and is pressing against the esophagus, causing difficulty in swallowing. Radiation would cause too much damage and I am not going to go that route. He has given me 6 months or less so I will live that time to the best of my ability and with praise for God all the way. I know He will help me through this and will take me Home when it is time (I'll get to see my folks and my beloved sister again!)

I just pray that, even after I'm gone, folks will use my story to try to help others, just the way you guys have helped me. When the time comes, angeleyes32, my daughter, will let all of you know.

Enough of the sad stuff!!! We're having a kite flying party. Reebes, will you bring the corn dogs? Who will help me build the bonfire of all the cigarettes we have NOT smoked? Come on, guys, lets party!

Mary

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3. THE BONFIRE IS LIT AND THE BONFIRE BRIGADE BABES..
From tillietoiler on 11/22/2001 4:46:17 PM

will be here shortly!!! Hip! Hip! Hooray!!!

I would have loved to introduce them to you myself BUT this all came about VERY suddenly! The idea had been suggested to me and, since there have been several instances in the recent past when I just could not get here, I literally jumped at the chance. Just never dreamed my Bonfire Brigade Babes would be needed so quickly. Thank goodness they were available and took up the reins (just like I trained them. LOL). Let's just say I had a little "personal plumbing" problem that could have been life-threatening if it had not been found when it was (and that is no joke!). All is well now, though, thanks to the wonderful nurses in our Hospice Program and my two wonderful, loving daughters. Believe me, I thank God for those girls each and every day (and night). Angeleyes and her son spent the night here with me just to be certain the crisis was really past and that I would be ok.

So, the fire is lit and the leftovers from our turkey feast are here and available (could anyone in the U.S. be hungry???) Oh, well, the fire is going nicely and soon our Babes will be here with probably a rousing cheer. However, leejay, those "little uniforms" have to pass my inspection first!! AND your title will be "BBB" for Bonfire Brigade Babe. I know you and, if you put BB on the front of a uniform, I know where each of them would be placed. Huh! Uh! No! No! No! The batons I could approve, I think. But "French Maid" uniforms? LOL Thanks for singing Mr. Sandman. One of my favorites. BTW, the uniforms would also have to pass inspection of the rest of the squad, too. Thanks to all of you.

Gotta go! This is turning into a ramble but it is really all about not smoking so gather up all of those stinking unsmoked sick sticks, tobacco product ads, cravings, and excess emotions you need to get rid of and just toss them onto the bonfire. Be sure you stand back far enough don't want anyone getting hurt.

Now, I'm gonna throw my comforter around me and get nice and wumphy here on my log. Oh, yeah, the tea is in its usual place but made extra special for you all tonight 'cause you were so good to my Babes last night and to angeleyes.

Mary



4. From pepper38mint on 8/23/2002 6:16:39 AM
The Bonfire was the first place I posted on the Q. Mary welcomed me and I had so much fun that night. The next day I qmailed her and asked her how she came up with the idea of the Bonfire. She said the thought just came to her and maybe it was from God. She said she loved when everyone was having a good time but she said Pepper please keep it clean. Mary was not a prude but she wanted to make sure things didn't go too far at the Bonfire. I loved when Byronand would come to the Bonfire and take Mary for a ride on his Harley. She would come back and say that was so much fun. She was really a special lady. I have so many memories of her and the Bonfire.

Pepper






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